Whining

right now i am so restless that i feel like i want to pull my hair out. my dog has been at the vet all day. i know she's scared. she either has a UTI or bladder stones. i feel like i ought to just drive up there and go get her. i want cry b/c i'm worried about her and i want to scream because it should not have taken them this long. I just want to hold my dog right now and give her lots of hugs and affection.

Worried

My dog has been aat the vet since 7:30 this morning. they can't get a urine sample from her. i'm just so worried. so that's why i came to whine on my blog. more whining to come...

The Sets of TV Shows

This is an old cover from Life magazine. You may also recognize it from the background in Three's Company. I love that show. I have always loved this picture and i also loved all the plants that were on the stage. This show also inspired me to take up the hobby of collecting houseplants. The sets of Three's company and The Mary Tyler Moore show have always inspired me.

Sweet Dreams from now on...I hope

Yesterday i got my CPAP machine...finally!!! I thought that the first night, which was last night would be horrible, but i slept well. Hopefully I will have more energy throughout the day and i can get more things done now.

Lightbulb

I think i've just had an aha moment! i feel so lost because i'm still grieving the losses in my life. I need to find a way to break-free from the bondage of the things (job, health, status, etc...) i have lost and move on. BTW thanks winifred for the comments

Lost continued

I feel lost because all the goals that i set in life seem so unreachable now. i need to overcome my ilnesses. it seems as if life is passing me by. all my friends have gone on to get there master's degrees and i still only have my bachelor's. by now i thought i would at least have my doctorate. i seem frozen. since i've come down with these illnesses i feel if i took a step foward i would fail. i probably feel this way because i lost my job because of my illnesses. that was a big blow to my ego. Me terminated from my job, i never could have imagined. i used to be a super overachiever now i feel as if i'm a super loser.

Lost

Sometimes i feel so lost in life...tbc